Distance was a funny thing.
Cramer was twelve when Mavis found the little yellow house overlooking Butchard’s Creek. It was so near to Chester’s Corner, she didn’t even have to change her phone number when they moved there. The school bus that picked him up at the foot of the drive took under fifteen minutes to get him to the school in the village, Eden Elementary. The bus trundled west along the Upper Valentine over the old bridge, and they were there, just like that.
Then in ’96, the bridge was closed down.
The county seemed to take forever settling on what to do with it, deciding, at last, that it was underused and too expensive to rebuild. So it was condemned. And because it was unsafe to leave standing, it was torn down. All that was left now were two sets of crumbling concrete pylons in the middle of the river and the yellow-and-black barricades with DANGER written all over them, where the Upper Valentine Road ended. From the barricade, you could see the township works garage on the edge of the village. In winter when the foliage was off the trees, you could even see his old middle school. You didn’t have to have much of an arm to hurl a stone most of the way across the Eden from where the road ended. But the bus that picked Cramer up after they tore down the bridge took over forty-five minutes to get him to school each morning. Chester’s Corner, where he and his mother had lived since his birth-with its little wooden-floored grocery store and post office and the garage where she had bought the Taurus, second-hand-might as well have been the moon.
Distance was a funny thing.
His second year at Ladybank Collegiate, Cramer realized he could get to town quicker by river than road. It took him just over half an hour if he put some muscle into it. He didn’t know back then who lived in the striking low house of window and yellow stone on the outskirts of town, the house with the sweeping lawns and the little jetty out onto the Eden. He passed it every good-weather morning and again as he returned in the afternoon without knowing that Marc Soto had lived there. And he didn’t know about the snye, farther upriver, the secret stream that led to the little house that had been Soto’s studio. When he had followed Jay there last fall, it was the first time he had laid eyes upon the place, but he guessed right off what it was-what it had been-and he took it all in, in its every detail. This, he knew, was the house in which he must have been conceived. The little bridge leading to it was crumbling. He noticed that as well. All these bridges that used to lead somewhere and no longer did.
Distance was a funny thing.
It was not until he was in high school that Cramer found himself walking the same hallways as his half-brother, Jackson Page. He had known of his existence since he was a kid. Once or twice on trips to town, Mavis had pointed Jay out to him, a boy the same age as he was, shopping with his mother, skateboarding with a friend. Now here he was every day.
He was a month and a bit older, a big brother to Cramer. He was Jay to everyone who knew him, and everyone did-everybody, it seemed, but Cramer himself. How strange was that? They might have shared the same halls, but they were never in the same class. Jay read announcements on the school intercom, played piano at assemblies, served on the student council. He was valedictorian. They went through four years of school together but not really together, because the currents in a high school were not ones that Cramer could negotiate. He had no Bunny to handle school. He had no quick, responsive craft to find his way through those waters. But he watched Jay all the same, like he was some exotic animal or a movie star. Never talked to him, though.
Well, once.
He was in a line for something, and turning around he found to his surprise that Jay was standing right behind him with Iris Xu.
“Hi,” said Cramer before he knew what he was doing.
Jay smiled. “Hi,” he said. “Long line, eh?”
“Yeah,” said Cramer, already regretting his impulsiveness. What was he supposed to say now?
“Hi,” said Iris. Cramer nodded, words abandoning him. Then Iris remembered something she had been meaning to show Jay, and as she dug into her backpack to find it, the line moved on. Just like that.
And just like that they graduated. Jay went west and Iris went to University of Toronto and Cramer stayed in Ladybank, never really expecting to see any of that crowd again, the college crowd-the ones that got away. And he didn’t, until last fall, when Jay returned and started hanging out at the house on the snye. Didn’t have a job, as far as Cramer could tell. Didn’t have to work. That stuck in Cramer’s craw. Not working. He could hardly imagine such a luxury. But that first day he saw him on the river, Cramer didn’t feel anything like anger. On the contrary! He had been sitting in the shade of a huge willow on the south shore of the Eden, looking through binoculars at the Page house across the way, and then suddenly there was Jay, climbing into his kayak, heading upstream. For one crazy moment, Cramer wanted to call to him. To paddle out of the shadows toward him “Hey, Jay. Hi! It’s me, remember?”
Like they were soul mates or something. Princes of the river.
Jay became a project, something to do on his days off. The house on the snye became somewhere to go. Then he started leaving him things. It happened almost by accident. A bluebird crashed into his mother’s studio window and broke its neck. She’d heard the crash and it had startled her. Cramer found the bird in the uncut grass, cradled it in his hands. It scarcely weighed a thing. But the iridescence of its wings was something. It was exactly the kind of thing you would run to show your big brother. And so he did.
Then there was the snake skin he’d found in the woodpile. Cramer was no poet, but he looked hard at things and saw what was there. And when he looked hard at their two lives-his and Jackson Page’s-he decided that a snake skin might also be a good thing for Jay to think about. The thing you had to crawl out of if you were to grow. Anyway, a little reminder to the golden boy that he was not alone in the world.
Then Jay fixed the upstairs window and Cramer was locked out, until he discovered the trapdoor. It was something he knew that Jay didn’t. Something he had over him.
Cramer had never taken anything from him. The stone, but that was worthless. It was just to play with his head. Nothing truly nasty. He didn’t want to scare him away. He wanted to be noticed, and he had no idea how-no other idea how. And yes, he wanted to disturb Jay’s comfort. Comfort was what Jay had a whole lot of. A world of comfort! He wanted Jay to know what it felt like to never really be able to relax, to never really feel at ease, to never have any time off. In a way, though he couldn’t exactly explain it, he was just trying to make smaller the distance-the gulf-between them.