Ben sat upright with a start, gasping, covered with sweat.
He was in bed. The sheets were a tangled mess around his feet. He had totally pulled the covers off Christina, probably hours ago. Fortunately, she was an extremely sound sleeper. Nothing bothered her. He could vacuum while she was snoozing and it wouldn’t disturb her. Him, not so much.
He was having the weirdest dream, and not the usual one where he appeared before the jury and suddenly realized he was in his underwear. This time, he was driving and something appeared in front of him, causing him to swerve off the road and go over an enormous cliff. He plummeted and there was nothing he could do about it because he was trapped and he couldn’t get the seat belt loose, not that plummeting outside a car was necessarily better than plummeting inside a car. He could see the craggy surface rapidly approaching and he screamed in terror, but the impact never seemed to come-he just fell and fell and fell, seemingly forever…
Or at least for seven days?
He rolled out of bed, trying to make as little ripple as possible, went to the sink, and splashed water on his face. That felt better. The cool rivulets trickled down the sides, easing the tensions, slowing his breathing.
He hated trials. And the worst part of any trial was the sleepless night before it started.
He checked the clock on the front of the cable box. It was late. He had to get back to sleep. The first day of a trial, a thousand things happened at once and he had to be ready for all of them, including the ones he hadn’t anticipated. Although the jurors had seen him during the selection process, it was still important to make a strong impression on the first day of evidence. When the real action began. The prosecution would undoubtedly have a flurry of surprise motions. The reporters would be everywhere. Just his luck that it happened to be a slow news week. They had been covering the pretrial motions as if they were royal weddings. He could just imagine what it would be like once the trial was actually under way. Buzzards circling about looking for any tabloid tidbit to turn into a lead story and boost ratings. Judge McPartland had said he didn’t want any comments on the content of the trial made to the press, but Ben knew there was much that could be done in the realm of characterization and innuendo without actually discussing the evidence. Normally Ben ignored the press during a trial, but he knew Dennis wouldn’t like that. Dennis thought it was important to court the media, even now, after the jury had been chosen. And, sad to say, he was probably right.
He slid back into bed as quietly as possible, hugging his pillow tightly. He was wide awake. Did it sometimes seem as if the more desperately you needed sleep, the less likely it was to come?
He flipped from side to side for a few minutes, then finally sat up. He thought he felt Christina stir a little.
“Are you awake?” he asked quietly.
“I am now, Insomnia Boy.”
“Didn’t mean to wake you.”
“I know. Got the pretrial jitters?”
“What makes you think that?”
She pounded her pillow, rolled over, and smiled. “Just a crazy whim. Sure, you were nervous before the last fifty trials, but for this capital murder case, you’re fine.”
“I would hate to see Dennis go to prison. Even if… well, you know.”
“Yeah. Someday we’re going to come up with another way to deal with criminals who aren’t evil and aren’t mean and aren’t going to hurt anyone. But it won’t be happening tonight, so why don’t you get some sleep?”
“I don’t think I can. I keep running every aspect of the trial through my head, wondering if there’s something I’ve forgotten.”
“I don’t want to raise your blood pressure, Ben, but the truth is, you probably have forgotten something. You know as well as I do how huge and complex trials are. It’s simply not possible to think of everything. You’ll deal with it when it comes up.”
“If that’s supposed to be comforting, it isn’t working. An attorney has to be prepared.”
“And you are. How many trial notebooks have you filled to the brim? About twenty?”
“Twenty-nine.”
“Is that a new Ben record?”
“Not quite. But you know, we had relatively little time before trial…”
“You’re ready. Dennis has nothing to complain about.”
“Maybe I should just start reviewing my notes.”
“No!” She sat up, and even in the darkness, he could tell she was giving him a stern look. “I absolutely forbid it.”
“I didn’t know you had that power.”
“It’s time you did. The honeymoon is over, pal.” She sniffed. “Well, technically, the honeymoon never happened.”
“Christina…”
“I know. Cheap shot.”
“What will I do if they ask a question and I don’t know the answer?”
“What you always do. Deal.”
He ran his hands through his hair and sighed. “I’m a total mess.”
She wrapped her arms around him and gently pulled him to her side. “Yes, you are, but I find that endearing. And you know what? I think the juries do, too. We have this post-Perry Mason idea that lawyers have to be perfectly slick bastions of badinage all the time. But sometimes I think that actually turns jurors off. People like human beings. With flaws. Someone they can relate to. And you’ve got that. Big-time.”
“Thank you. I think.”
She hugged him tighter. She smelled extremely nice. Christina was one of those special women who seemed immune to morning breath or any other slumber-related unpleasantness. She was always appealing.
“So, Ben. Is there anything I can do to help you sleep?”
“Well…”
“Anything that’s likely to happen.”
He smiled. “I’ll be fine.”
“Give me a minute.” She jumped out of bed, put on her robe, and walked into the kitchen. She returned a few minutes later carrying a steaming mug. “Drink this.”
Ben took it cautiously. “This isn’t drugged, is it? Because I have to be up at six, ready to rock and roll.”
“Relax. It’s just chamomile tea.”
He looked into the cup and frowned. “You’re giving me hot leafy water? Doesn’t it have caffeine?”
“No. It’s not really even tea. But it will help you sleep.”
Ben took a sip. “That’s not bad.” He drank a little more. “Nice, actually.”
She smiled. “I’m glad you’re getting some benefit out of the marriage. Now, finish it off, then cuddle up close to me and go to sleep.”
“Oh… I don’t want to keep you awake.”
“Who are we kidding? You’ll fall right back to sleep. Men always do. Me, it will take a while.”
He put down the empty mug and snuggled in. “Thanks for being so nice about it.”
She kissed him gently on the forehead. “That’s what I’m here for.”